Saturday, March 8, 2008
I'M FREAKING BORED!
I'm bored. I'm at work as usual. Ken got to go work at the races tonight. He sent me two videos of the races...not fair! I wanted to go so bad. I think I'm going to ask for a friday off so that I can go watch them. Blah, I don't really have anything to write. I'm just bored.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Bullshit
Bullshit. That's what this whole thing is. Just bullshit. There are such fucking double standards in this fucking place it makes me sick. Not that I want to sit around talking about my sex life or anything but I just can't stand this double standard bull shit. If I get "talked to" about talking about my personal life at work then no one should be allowed to talk about it. It just pisses me off. SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING SIT HERE AND LISTEN TO YOU!
Blah, so today was not a bad day it was just not a good day either. Ken was gone all day which totally sucked and then he had to come into work to deal with stupid people so I got to see him for a minute which was great. He says I just need to get over the whole giving a shit about the double standards thing. I suppose he's right.
Blah, so today was not a bad day it was just not a good day either. Ken was gone all day which totally sucked and then he had to come into work to deal with stupid people so I got to see him for a minute which was great. He says I just need to get over the whole giving a shit about the double standards thing. I suppose he's right.
I have not written in a while...
I have not written anything on here for a while so I thought I have a little time tonight why not...
I feel like I don't do anything at work anymore. I really hate this 2000-0400 shift. It's slow so slow. When I am at work I feel like my mind is turning to mush. I would have more brain activity if I were watching a fly crawl around on a window! It's not that I want work to be busy, it's not that I don't like working here. It's just the damn shift. There is no point for me to be here until 0400. After midnight there is definatly nothing to do. I'm even running out of things to do on the internet to keep me from falling asleep or going mad. I tried bringing my coloring book...that lasted a whole 10 minutes. I can't read a book, I get way into books when I read them and then I get tired. I'm sick of the games on my cell phone. I'm sick of the games on the internet. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm bored.
Other then work life is going well. I've been sick latly so the house is kind of messy but I can't seem to get off my lazy ass and clean it. I've been trying a little each day to do something. I did a load of dishes and I did 2 loads of laundry and yet I still didn't put them away. I need to clean the house so I can wash the carpets and I need to figure out what is wrong with Alicia. I have no clue why she is going to the bathroom on the carpet. Other then the house being dirty...Ken and I are doing well. We work a lot and work opposite hours which sucks. He's still tecnically "married" which sucks also. I want him to get a divorce...I understand the money thing...I think. I love him so much I just wish I could make everything better for him. He has made my life a fairy tail. I could never have dreamed of being this happy. He is such a great man, he does so much for me and I feel like I don't do anything in return. I mean I try and show him how much I love him everyday but I can't give him the things he gives me. He spoils me. I love it though, I'm not going to say that I don't love it. I'm not going to expect that he does it, I just love him and wish that I could show him. Blah. Stupid. I don't know why I get so hung up on the marriage thing...and the baby. I want a baby so bad. Sometimes I feel like me wanting on so bad makes it not happen. I mean god knows we have enough sex to make a baby! I love every minute of that too!!! Damn just thinking about it right now...woah! Gotta derail the train from that thought...I'm at work! It's 3am...I get to go home in an hour...isn't that awesome!?!
I feel like I don't do anything at work anymore. I really hate this 2000-0400 shift. It's slow so slow. When I am at work I feel like my mind is turning to mush. I would have more brain activity if I were watching a fly crawl around on a window! It's not that I want work to be busy, it's not that I don't like working here. It's just the damn shift. There is no point for me to be here until 0400. After midnight there is definatly nothing to do. I'm even running out of things to do on the internet to keep me from falling asleep or going mad. I tried bringing my coloring book...that lasted a whole 10 minutes. I can't read a book, I get way into books when I read them and then I get tired. I'm sick of the games on my cell phone. I'm sick of the games on the internet. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm bored.
Other then work life is going well. I've been sick latly so the house is kind of messy but I can't seem to get off my lazy ass and clean it. I've been trying a little each day to do something. I did a load of dishes and I did 2 loads of laundry and yet I still didn't put them away. I need to clean the house so I can wash the carpets and I need to figure out what is wrong with Alicia. I have no clue why she is going to the bathroom on the carpet. Other then the house being dirty...Ken and I are doing well. We work a lot and work opposite hours which sucks. He's still tecnically "married" which sucks also. I want him to get a divorce...I understand the money thing...I think. I love him so much I just wish I could make everything better for him. He has made my life a fairy tail. I could never have dreamed of being this happy. He is such a great man, he does so much for me and I feel like I don't do anything in return. I mean I try and show him how much I love him everyday but I can't give him the things he gives me. He spoils me. I love it though, I'm not going to say that I don't love it. I'm not going to expect that he does it, I just love him and wish that I could show him. Blah. Stupid. I don't know why I get so hung up on the marriage thing...and the baby. I want a baby so bad. Sometimes I feel like me wanting on so bad makes it not happen. I mean god knows we have enough sex to make a baby! I love every minute of that too!!! Damn just thinking about it right now...woah! Gotta derail the train from that thought...I'm at work! It's 3am...I get to go home in an hour...isn't that awesome!?!
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