First blog on blogger.com

I decided to make a blog page that I could write in at work, because well I can't get onto myspace and work. Plus everyone and their mother is on myspace. I just wanted someplace where I can just type out whatever I felt like because it gets old sitting in dispatch at ungodly hours being bored out of my mind. So I thought I would start a blog and just blah blah blah... you know, I don't think anyone will even read this. My mind is so full of crap latly that I just wanted a place to rant and rave and just well type, I don't even really know what I'm saying. and I am probably not going to fix any of the mistakes i make whether it's spellign or anythign so if you don't like it then stop reading now.
So down to it then...

where to start? hmm, i dont know really. I'm at work, it's not so busy, we have one guard out on timer, that's always fun...phone...back... where was i? hmmm so Anabelly is here with me. She's so funny sometimes. I like working grave with her. It's slow though. I don't know why there needs to be 2 of us here after like 0100 but whatever I mean something bad could happen and we would need two people. Blah anyway, let's see, what else to talk about. I want to talk about the love of my life but I dont know where to start. I love him so much I just want to be with him all of the time but that can't happen right now. He's still married. I know he is going to get the devorce papers. I just wish it was sooner then later, but I'm being patient, I don't want to loose him because I'm so pushy, I just love him so much I want to run away with him, but not really because I'd miss my friends. Well the only frined I really have here is Anna. She's been a little upset lately. I don't really pretend to know why. I know she's been having some problems at home and money and stuff but she just seems more down then that. I wish I could help her. I'm having problems too. I don't have a place to life right now. Well I'm in my parents garage but my stepdad is being a dick and I have to be out by Jan 8th. Ken and I are going to move in together but it's hard finding a place when you have no money. I don't know what my problem is but I just can't seem to save money. It's horrible. I'm scared. Ken says everything is going to work out and I believe him but there is still that little knawing feeling in the back of my head. I love him so much and I want to be with him for the rest of my life. He says he wants to marry me and I really hope it's the truth. He makes me so happy. He says the sweetest things to me. He doesn't just say the sweetest things, he does the sweetest things too. I don't even know how to explain it. I don't have the right words. I just love him so much. Love isn't even a strong enough word for the connection that I feel with him. For the way he makes my heart melt whenever he touches me. Ahhh, I just want to scream when I am not near him. Then again my whole body screams when I am with him too : ) But you don't get to hear about that!! Anyway, I guess I should do some real work now.

Love,
Ken's Sunshine